Six Years
I missed my annual x-years-since-we-met post which would have been six and on July 28th like I did for five, four, and three (sorta, a little late on that one). I have talked about our anniversaries...
View ArticleExpectations and Rituals
Note: I’m posting this in October of 2013, but I’ve backdated it to over a year and a half ago because that is when I wrote it and when the experience happened. I just found this in my drafts folder...
View ArticleThe Things I’ve Learned
I’ve taken a break from the internet in the last few months, specifically this break has been from the online persona I have been developing on this blog since 2007. I experienced a mental breakdown of...
View ArticleShifted to Poly
For a large part of the last year Onyx and I were monogamish. There was occasional makeouts and things with other people, but even though there were a few people we were interested in I couldn’t think...
View ArticleStained
I want to open you to yourself. Show you the beauty that lies within, Help you fill the void inside you, That empty place that can be full. I want to crack you open like a pomegranate, Taste your...
View ArticleAdventures in Amsterdam: Reflections and Declarations
Adventures in Amsterdam is a series of updates about my time in Amsterdam from July 12th-August 12th attending the Summer Institute on Sexuality, Culture, and Society at the University of Amsterdam....
View ArticleOn Longing to Meditate on the Will of Someone Else
I miss the feeling of steel encircling my neck. The weight of it made it difficult for me to sleep on my back, and I still have difficulty sleeping that way, even though it has now been over nine...
View ArticleSexual Identity Story
I was recently answering a question in a queer poly FAAB/woman/feminine-oriented group I’m part of and thought it would make good blog fodder. I have a ton of posts I keep working on and meaning to...
View ArticleProtected: Slow Change
This content is password protected. To view it please enter your password below: Password:
View ArticleHeart Opening
I have so much aching in the heart of me So old So removed The armor holding it in has been pierced Slowly, access has been given Tender smooth muscle exposed to the elements now So frozen So cold So...
View ArticleI Want to Be the Lover
As I lie in bed getting ready to sleep tonight, I think of you. Yet again. This is especially the time my thoughts turn to you, when I’m too tired to resist them wandering in your direction, when I’m...
View ArticleJane Hirshfield, “To Drink”
I want to gather your darkness in my hands, to cup it like water and drink. I want this in the same way as I want to touch your cheek – it is the same – the way a moth will come to the bedroom window...
View ArticleDeep Into Me
I want you to find the constellations in my freckles This map that the sun has called forth from my body Each a little mystery, a portal into me Opening myself to you. I want to know you fully and...
View ArticleLate Night Poetry [Untitled]
You fell in love with my divinity My priest/ess My most-best self. I fell in love with your brokenness Your dark and trembling Your wounded vulnerability I wanted to know how I could be so vulnerable...
View ArticleDriven to Distraction
I can’t get the image of you fucking me out of my head. This isn’t just an image in the visual sense. When I think of it I can feel the ghost of the sensations you evoke within me across my body. My...
View Article
